Just Do It

Back at school after the best Spring Break I think I've had. It was hard to get back, especially with the difficulty of the material we're doing right now, and with all the essays I had to grade my last two days of break. Today was a professional development day, and there was more grading, this time of TCAP Writing assessments of all the 9th and 10th graders. I graded two classes from two other teachers, and since I felt sorry for our department chair (overworked, and her car broke down in Florida over break, and it's STILL THERE), I volunteered and took one of the extra classes to grade that was left over at the end. What was I THINKING? I don't know - I'm just a giver. Ha - that's hardly true - I've felt very selfish and self-absorbed and self-self-self the last few days (I know! Surprising for a blogger.)

I'm excited about starting the script-writing challenge - several of my favorite peeps from Act One are doing it, too, so that will be good for encouragement and GUIDANCE for my inexperienced self. I'm not totally committed to my idea yet, so I've got 5 days to come up with something I'm really psyched to do. (If you have a pitch for me, I'll be glad to hear it!) The great thing I keep going back to on this challenge as it gets closer and closer is that the goal is to have 100 pages of a draft - it doesn't have to be anywhere near perfect - and the admonition is to "just write." I love to "just write," as is evidenced by, well, right this moment, and it will be cool, I hope, to have that self-accountability to write. I really need the inner-critic/perfectionist to take a very long hike off a short pier. Like, pronto.

Big sigh... I'm just very unhappy right now - but of what value is "happiness", really? I don't know. Keeping busy and intellectually-stimulated should help me with that, and it is, but there's that ongoing nagging reality that I'm not really living life to the fullest as is, and I want to do what I can to change that.

Um... you must be thinking - what a random entry. Indeed. But I wanted to put something up here while I still have time - and oh yeah - because I do love me some procrastinating when I should be working on school stuff.

Peace out.